EXERCISE!!

Well, I did it!!  I EXERCISED!!!  I walked 2 times today.  Once for 24 minutes and a second time for 27 minutes and 40 seconds.  My treadmill has an issue where it stops after so many minutes of walking and this is how far I got both times before it stopped.  I also did very well with my calories--1360!  And, I had one Vi-Shake!  Chocolate Peanut Butter!!  So good!  I'm going to visit my family and friends from WV mid-March and I want to be down at least 30 pounds by then!  That's doable in about 5 weeks...right?  We'll see!     

So, so far off!

So, I've not weighed since I lost weight from my stomach virus.  I'm pretty sure I've put a few of those pounds back on.  ugggg.  I'm also guilty of not drinking all of my shakes, too.  Then, there's the exercise thing.  I keep telling myself...tomorrow I WILL exercise!  but, I never do.  :(  I need a swift kick in the rear to get me going.  I know that me not losing weight is my own fault.  I have all the tools.  Visalus is the best tool I've found and I'm not making the most of it.  Why do I do this to myself?  It's almost like I'm afraid of being successful.  I know that sounds strange but I don't know how else to describe it.  I NEED and WANT to do this for myself, my husband and my son!  Maybe if I posted a picture of myself or my actual weight that would be motovation?!  hmmm...maybe not.  I know it's depressing, I'm depressed about how I look constantly.  Looking in the mirror is depressing, trying on clothes is depressing, seeing my cute "skinny" clothes in my closet is depressing.  I need more blog friends to keep me accountable.  :(

sick, sick, sick

This house has been filled with sick people since last week.  My son was just getting over bronchitis when he came down with, what else then, the STOMACH FLU!!  He puked and puked and puked!  Then the next day, guess who got to do the puking?  Daddy?  oh, no...it was MOMMY!  It was a nasty bug.  I puked out everything I'd eaten in the last month!  but, I DID lose 5.5 pounds during that day of puking so I guess a little good came out of it.  And, as of Saturday I'd not gained back any of it.  I really hadn't had much of an appetite until today and I'm afraid I made up for those 4 lost days!  :(  Hopefully, it's not as bad as I think it is.  I'm not going to weight again until I get back into my diet/exercise routine.  I just hope any further illnesses stay out of this house.  I'm not sure I can handle anymore sickness right now!  Also, I'm looking forward to drinking my shakes again.  I couldn't handle the thoughts of anything with milk in it or any kind of "thick" drink so I just went without.  Not the norm, usually I CRAVE Visalus because it's so yummy!   

Sundays...oh, Sundays.

I always overeat on Sundays.  My grandmother...AKA..the BEST cook EVER always makes huge Sunday dinners.  and, well, I eat them.  I did do better than previous Sunday's, though.  ...baby steps!  Well, it didn't help that I made 2 desserts to go with the dinner.  Of course, I didn't drink my shakes and now I feel like garbage.  For real, people...I DO NOT feel good when I don't drink my Visalus shakes.  The vitamins, fiber, protein..etc I miss when I don't drink them messes up my system.  Now, my stomach hurts and I feel bloated.  Also, I have a problem with sitting on my favorite spot on the couch and "working" on my computer while I watch T.V. for way too long of periods of time!  HELP!  I need to exercise more!   

Day 2

I woke up yesterday with a sore swollen ankle.  I'm not sure how I hurt it.  but, I've barely been able to walk so exercising is out of the question for now, which really stinks!  I got "Just Dance 2" and "Michael Jackson's" Wii games and am LOVING them.  It's the first exercise I've actually enjoyed doing in a long time.  But, there's no way I can do either of them with this painful ankle.  Walking short distances are taxing!  I think it's starting to heal.  Hopefully, I'll be up and going tomorrow!  Prayers for a healed ankle tonight, please!  :) 

As for my diet...I've been doing well.  I only had one shake today.  I opened a can of pears for my son and, well, I ADORE pears.  So, I ate several.  That was my "breakfast"...at 11:30 this morning.  Then, I made him a piece of toast on 35 calorie bread and he wouldn't eat it so I ate that.  All together I had 1620 calories.  Not too bad.  I should have had less since I'm not exercising but I'm trying to make "livable" changes.  Tomorrow I will drink my shake BEFORE I eat anything.  It does fill me up and make dieting easier.  I just need to drink it first.  and, have one pear.  Not half a can THEN a shake 2 hours later. 

Tomorrow's goals--2 Visalus shakes.  and, 1300 calories.  and, dance for 30 minutes IF my ankle feels better.  (I love these games so I always end up dancing longer!!)   

Fresh Start...

Just what I need!  I get so excited the night before I start a new "dieting adventure."  but, in the past, like many others, these dieting adventures fall flat in just a few days.  So, what's going to make this diet any different?  I don't know the answer to that yet.  I just know I can't live my life like this anymore.  I'm depressed, anxious, and I don't want to be seen by anyone.  I just want to hide in a corner wearing my big baggy clothes.  I hate being like this.  I MUST change.  I MUST get control over my eating and MAKE MYSELF EXERCISE!  I'm very excited about Visalus for many reasons.  For one, the shakes are VERY yummy!  and, quite filling.  I don't feel like I'm giving up the food I want.  It's a "doable" diet..plus, the added health benifits aren't too shabby either.  I must sleep now...tomorrow starts "dieting adventure" day #1!!